Swim test

In this way, you do not have faith in Christ because of the wisdom of men. You have faith in Christ because of the power of God.                                                                                                                  1 Corinthians 2:5

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not trust in your own understanding.
Proverbs 3:5

Growing up I didn’t love summer camp.  Summer, fine… Camp, no.  If the question has “camp” in it, my answer is “no thanks.”  There was always a swim test before we could take canoes by ourselves. The first summer I took the test I failed. But I had absolutely no doubt or fear before the swim test. I was 100% positive I could crush it.  My turn. What? I”m tired, out of breath, struggling, gasping,… can’t make it. Fail.  Cute life guard though.

I feel like that young girl on the dock right now. So self-assured and eager to pass all the tests that lay ahead. Home inspection test, first placement test, healing a child test, bonding test, reunification test, not stressing out test.  I want to live by the scriptures above, while also understanding the extremely difficult moments we are about to face. ‘Bout to get REAL.. for real.

When I imagine myself reading early posts after years of being licensed, I hear myself chuckling at my own innocence. But even now I do realize I will need God as my lifeguard.  When we jump in for the tests, God will be there. 

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