Monthly Archives: January 2016

Delivered from Deficiency

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When our little girl came to our house she had been diagnosed with rickets. She had been deprived of many nutrients. But the most damaging was that she was deprived of vitamin D. Rickets is the condition of bone deterioration, distortion of bones, and weakening of bones due to lack of vitamin D. She was 2-1/2 years old and could barely stand and walk. She was bent over like a little old lady. She had already begun treatment when she came to us, but before then she would cry when she moved because of the pain.

It was so satisfying to feed her. Watching her cute little mouth sip on milk, take bites of cheese, and gulp down raspberry yogurt was gratifying! She was depleted of nutrients and we were here to replace, rebuild, and supply. It was seriously rewarding to see her gain weight, grow taller, stand straighter, and move around easier. But not only that, her speech improved and she was thriving in all developmental areas.

I’ve learned that God delights in supplying us with nutrients too. He knows our deficiencies and wants to be our provider. What am I deficient in? For our new daughter it was vitamin D. For me it changes, right? Deficient in faith some days, deficient in trust, deficient in time in the Word, deficient in patience, in love for my family, in submitting to my husband, and so much more.

We watched her thrive in all areas of her life.  And it all started with providing for deficiency in one area:  nutrition.  How many areas of my life will thrive if I go to God to provide for even just one deficiency?  I believe receiving grace, guidance, or growth from God in one aspect of our lives can prompt growth in additional aspects.

Just as we have found joy in fulfilling needs for her, God finds joy in doing the same for us. I’ve learned that we don’t have to be ashamed of our deficiencies. He knows what they are before we do. He is so happy when we come to Him for our needs. I believe He rejoices that He provides our nutrients so that we too can thrive in all our developmental areas.

 Thank you God for accepting us and embracing us as we come to You with our deficiencies.

Got Milk? Yes we do. We gots lots of milk to supply our little one with her vitamin D. Got Grace? Yes God does. He gots lots of grace to supply us with all that we could ever need.

Happy One Year Anniversary to Us

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Tomorrow will be the one year anniversary of this little bee buzzing home to us. We have been foster parents for a year! And we have only had one placement. We were blessed with this adorable little 2-1/2 year old girl who came into our lives and filled us with joy.

I am just now re-booking our travel plans that we cancelled last year when we found out our first little placement would be moving in. I’ll never forget getting the phone call asking us if we could take her. We were so excited, but also had a vacation around the corner. Dilemma:   take a needed family vacation and get some sunshine, rest, and take a break from routine. Or… the opposite of that. I thought about it for a while, and even got advice to postpone taking a placement until after the vacation.

Insert Irony: Our vacation was to go to California to see our pastor preach at his LA campus, and the sermon would be about Jesus, and then we would be inspired to live like Jesus, and then we would want to take in a foster child.

In addition to the irony was God’s quick nudge that this little girl was supposed to be part of our family. I cancelled hotel, car, and hair salon reservations with no penalties. Again, God put it on my heart that He would take care of the details.   I had a feeling I should call the airlines (rhymes with Alaska) and explain the situation to see if cancellation fees could be adjusted. No doctor’s note. No death certificate. The agent responded without hesitation, “Yes, I can waive your cancellation fees no problem. And thank you. I was a foster child and my foster family was such a blessing to me.” Holy Spirit in action.

 God thank you for working out all the details of our first foster placement. It has been beyond anything we could have designed for ourselves. You are greater than our hopes and dreams.                                                                                                                                                          God, I am so grateful that you aren’t afraid of our weaknesses. God, that you can work out the details for me to grow closer to you. Thank you for giving me desire for you, making me see free time as opportunities for prayer or devotion. And arranging all the details for me to grow in relationship with You.

Are You There God? It’s Me, Jody

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This year I want to grow closer to you. I am so thankful that you are my Abba Father, and that you desire to be close to me.

It’s been a year since our first foster placement came home to us. It’s been over a year since I’ve posted on my blog site. What happened? Why did my search for answers and guidance and comfort stop when our little girl came into our lives? I mean aside from the fact that all of a sudden my days were busier: changing diapers, driving to doctor appointments, meeting with social workers, and stocking up on mac-n-cheese.

Looking back on my blog posts during our licensing process, I remember the desperation and anticipation in which I was immersed. I admit if I really search my soul, I may have felt closer to God a year ago than I do now. Maybe once we got our placement, I felt satisfied. My prayer work was done, and my search for the answer to a full life was over. We did it: we listened to our pastor, we prayed, we followed Jesus, and we obeyed, and now it’s complete. Not so much.

After we had our little girl for about a month, our son came home from college for a long weekend. He confirmed everything I was thinking, “Wow Mom, I have never seen our family so happy. You and Dad are doing great. The girls are happy, and our new little sister is amazing.” I felt like something was accomplished, completed, and settled. What else could I ever need?  What else could God ever want from me?

But as our journey with our foster child was getting more and more awesome, I eventually noticed my soul was feeling more and more empty. My heart was/is idle.  I wasn’t  joyful, I wasn’t engaged, I started to focus in on the difficult sides to our fostering experience.

I guess it took a year for the answer to “what else could God want from me?” to be revealed:  He wants me to be close to Him. Always. In happy times, desperate times, sad times, hard times, victorious times, and yes, the “I got this” times.  Thank you, Jesus for rescuing me from slipping away.  I will never ever forget this Christmas, 2015.  Because our new daughter was with us, and because my focus on you was renewed and refreshed.

The Lord is near to all who call upon Him,  To all who call upon Him in truth.

Psalm 145:18   NKJV