Why is this different? Usually I take the first out I can get. Up ’til now I was able to negotiate out… too busy, too old, too tired, too gluten-free. I can always find an excuse to say, “better not.”
My pastors say, “What you are called to do won’t be easy. The enemy will try to stop you. If it seem crazy, difficult, or bad timing — yet there is a peace in it — Then you’re probably going the right direction. Shut the devil down, and keep on keepin’ on.”
Foster parenting? Yeah, no. Father God, I love ya, sounds good… just, y’know, not now. like – bad timing. (call “whine-one-one.”) Chasing 3 kids for 15 years, got 2 heading for college, private schools, super busy with work, 2 dogs, and probs the application process will spit us out anyway. Plus.. Plus.. last time I babysat my nephew? He cried.
But this is actually different. I just texted my hubby: “is the fingerprint appointment notice in our mailbox?” Whaaat? I would have, could have, always have given up by this point. Let’s say I don’t have FOMO. (Fear of Missing Out) I’m happy to miss out. Love missing out.
God keeps telling me, “I am calling you to this. Go ahead and try to find reasons to back out, but you won’t find peace there. I have prepared your family for this purpose.”
Peace and joy and fulfillment have come into my heart with our decision to foster/adopt children. There is no doubt. Plenty of excuses…But no doubt.
Many are the plans in a person’s heart,
but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.
-Proverbs 19:21 NIV
Not often in my life has anything passed our “yes test” quite like this. I guess that’s what happens when prayers are answered.